That’s good stuff! Who wouldn’t like that?! Again though, I really struggle with this idea of sonship/daughtership (are these even words?).
The other day I was hiking in the middle of the forest just outside of DC. Joaquin was wrecking havoc, causing the temperature to drop and the rain to fall sideways. But I love days like this. Out in the beauty, just me and my dog (and a cigar) carving our own trail. We got deep into the forest and I became overwhelmed by the beauty, the surroundings, and the sound of the rain all around. These are the moments for me when God feels closest. So I began to pray. “God, you lead, I will follow. Wherever you go, I will go. You are my shepherd and I choose you…”
You get the idea.
But out of nowhere I sensed God say, “Actually wherever you go, I will go.” Hmm? Immediately, I recoiled – it sounded like horrible and a narcissistic theology. Was Benny Henn speaking to me through osmosis? But this voice in my mind continued. “I placed a signet ring on your finger, filled you with my spirit – you are my son. You represent me and where you walk, I will be there to bless it.”
Again, my response was in the negative, “No, no… I am a mess – you just lead and I’ll follow.”
“Brock, don’t you know who you are? Even your mistakes I cover – I work them out for good.”
And as I was walking through the forest and in the rain I imagined what the prodigal son must have felt. Utter grace.
See, grace is scandalous – its not deserved and its super uncomfortable. And you can either run from it, or swallow your pride and receive it. I’m doing my best these days to shut up and just receive it. Although, I’m finding it not easy.
But there in the woods and in the rain, I believe God spoke to me. He reminded me who I am, in spite of who I am. See, you are God’s daughter; you are his son. And like a good father, when you ask for bread, he’s not going to give you a snake. All you have to do today is walk in the reality that you have his ring on your finger. You have his spirit in you. You have his favor. In fact, you are the favored one. And no, this isn’t bad televangelist theology. This is what is called good news. You get the privilege of walking in his favor- you and I get to represent and extend his fatherhood everywhere we go. How awesome!